First things first. Let me put it out in the open. This is my first blog post, and I am scared.
Someone who has been a huge inspiration used to say something that has stuck with me: "We all have the potential to do great things. Most of us just won't." Ouch. Right?
I know why I have been putting off thinking out loud for years. I am scared. I am scared of what you would say when you read my posts. I am scared of what you would not say. I am scared that you would not even read any of my posts. I am scared that you would read my posts and that the blog would take over my life. I am scared of being scared. I am scared that you would start treating me differently in real life because of what I write here. I am also scared that you would be completely indifferent to what I write. Pretty paradoxical huh? I am scared that I won't like what I write. I have always been scared of that. I don't particularly like what I am writing right now, but I have decided to post it anyway. And that is scary.
I am scared. I know you are scared too. We are all scared of something. Or many, many somethings. I know you are. I also know you are scared of admitting you are scared. Like I am. Your heroes are scared too. I bet you knew that. How often do you remember to remember that? See the third third of this Webstock video for a reminder, it's just 5 minutes. Everyone is scared. I am scared. You are scared. Your heroes are scared. But they do great things anyway.
To quote the (self-described) unintentionally inspiring Merlin Mann, everybody's scared and the only difference is whether you're just going to keep doing cool stuff when you're scared. Because you're always going to be scared. But they can't eat you.
And they won't. Okay?
So I am done not doing what I want to do because I am scared. I am going to start thinking out loud. And I hope you'll join me. And I am scared that you won't. And I'm scared that you will and that I won't be able to keep up with you. But I am going to do it anyway. Because the universe doesn't care whether or not I'm scared (also a Merlin quote). I don't know how great it will be. Actually, scratch that. I do know it will not always be great. But it will be me doing what I want, and trying to do great stuff. And that is great.
I am scared but I am hungry. And I am going to be foolish. Let the dominoes fall.
What are you scared of?
Dessert: No One Needs Permission to be Awesome - blog post - by Merlin Mann
[Image credit: Victor Bezrukov]
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